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15 days!!!
DATE: 09/20/2007 08:20:08 / MOOD: in love
just over 2 weeks to go. i'm so excited, i just can't wait. we've been talking a lot recently about the practicalities, and trying to make sure we both know what we're getting into. so far, we're on the same page with everything except baby names, lol. our friends are understandably a little concerned. i don't think they understand how important this is to both of us. we figure that a second chance is a damn rare thing. so we want to make sure we don't mess things up. i'm not sure either of us could take it if things didn't work out. we've spent years missing each other, and now we have a chance to do all the things we should have done then. of course we're older and wiser now, so maybe it's a good thing we had this gap? all i know is i'm a bundle of nerves now. excited, anxious, concerned.... and we're both scared out of our wits, but we feel it's the right thing. i'm sure i'll be posting regular attacks of nerves until he gets here, lol.
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frustrations and a pick-me-up
DATE: 09/18/2007 08:42:26 / MOOD: in love
so, i wake up this morning, get myself together, and head for the kitchen. where i find the same pile of dirty dishes in the sink as last night, and the entire day before. dishes are supposed to be Joe's job, but obviously he hasn't been doing it. Cougar hasn't been doing dishes either, even tho she's crashing on my couch while she finds somewhere to go. mind you, we have a DISHWASHER. which makes it not hard to do the dishes. so i'm slamming things around in the kitchen, loading the dishwasher and generally being disgruntled, and i get a message from my baby telling me good morning. i told him a little of what was going on, and a few minutes later, my phone rings. a little piece of heaven on the other end of the line. Bobby always seems to know what i need. we talked for almost 40 minutes this morning, he got me kinda calmed down about the house, told me about the latest fight with Farrah. and of course how much he loves me and misses me and how he can't wait to get here. all the gooey things a girl needs to hear sometimes to make her day a little more bearable. 17 days. i just have to make it 17 days.
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18 days left
DATE: 09/17/2007 18:24:44 / MOOD: in love
and i'm totally tearing my hair out, lol. we've been getting a little time here and there to chat online, but it's not the same. just two and a half weeks and he'll be home, tho, i'm trying to keep focussed on that. i miss him so much. everything about him. the sound of his voice, the way he touches me, his scent.... i miss the way he reaches for my hand when we're watching tv, the way he catches my eye and winks in a crowded room of people, the way he pulls me to sit on his lap when we're with friends. he's always been so gentle with me, so caring and loving. i still can't believe how fast we're moving. but both of us have a gut feeling that this is right, and where we're supposed to be to be happy. so, forward we go, into the great and scary unknown. how come the fairy-tales never tell ya the handsome prince on horseback is an irish-italian stud with an inclination towards stompy irish punk bands?
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stress!!!
DATE: 09/14/2007 12:45:17 / MOOD: in love
too much stress. we're still gearing up for the auction on the third, less than 3 weeks til that, and three weeks til Bobby comes home. the waiting is killing us both, we don't want to wait anymore. we've already planned out a couple of our evenings once he arrives. apparently he's going to tear apart my kitchen while i'm at work the day after he arrives, lol. i know he's going to be appalled at how much of the basics we seem to be missing. he said we're going shopping that night when i get off work. the boy is still determined to take me shopping for a more suitable "little black dress" which i wouldn't mind if not for where he wants to go. the way he talks, i'm going to end up feeling like i've wandered into an old Julia Roberts movie, lol. i'm not used to spending $300 on just a dress, but he seems determined, lol. hell, i spent just over $300 when we got this apartment and went to Ikea, furnished almost half the place, lol. i've been told i will be spoiled for my birthday whether i like it or not, lol. is this finally my fairy-tale ending?
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full house
DATE: 09/06/2007 08:18:35 / MOOD: full of life
so, the house is full to overflowing with people and creatures at the moment. we currently have some short-term guests in the form of Cougar (housebroken but not domesticated), Wikkit (Shih-tzu, proffessor Splyff Wikkit, Small Dog at Large), and Klink (tortoise, sucker for mangoes). also, Dan still spends inordinate amounts of time here. i'm rapidly reaching the boiling point with the entire situation. the dog has "invaded" my cat's territory, which is upsetting him. so, being a cat, he's started peeing on things to express his displeasure. the matter is not helped by the fact that Cougar and the dog are camped out on what was previously the cat's couch. i'm frustrated and aggravated and i'm reaching the end of my patience. this is my problem. i want to help my friends, give them a safe place to retreat to when needed. the problem being, i tend to overtask myself. i now find myself saddled with a person, a dog, and a tortoise while trying to prepare for the biggest auction we've had in a while, and being faced with Bobby coming home in a month. the house is still a mess, not up to my standards, Dan still lies in my bed all day sleeping. i just really need a break. i reminded Cougar this morning that Wikkit has til the 14th, but her b/f is busy being a ???o, so we'll see how things go. *sigh* i love them all, but dammit i can't save everyone.
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one more hurdle
DATE: 09/05/2007 08:47:07 / MOOD: in love
so, one more dilemma resolved, resulting, of course, in yet another complication. i had sent an email to Christina at my home office asking about adding a person to our lease. for those of you unfamiliar, i work as a resident property manager, which means my apartment is included in my salary. i got my answer yesterday morning, all she needs is a full name and we fill out a one-page addendum. *glee* so, it's set, when Bobby arrives on October 5th, he will move directly into my room. i'll get to wake up to my love every morning. Dan is understandably peeved, tho i think i've figured out how to get across to him how i prioritized this. Dan still has a home to go back to, Bobby has nowhere here. seems like a no-brainer to me. Dan's having a bit of a "me, too!" moment. we were talking last night, and he said "how come he gets to live with you, and i don't?" i told him that my hopes are that Bobby can adjust and we can go from the apartment here to a 3 bedroom house in which we can all live happily. pipe-dreams, i know, but one must have dreams, yes? Dan came with me to a friend's wedding on Sunday, he was very sentimental, he cried more than i did, lol. it got us both thinking. he seems to be ok with the idea of a triad handfasting. i love the idea of being in a polyfi triad, but a lot of that will depend on how they feel about it.
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on my boys.....
DATE: 08/27/2007 00:55:45 / MOOD: in love
a little about my boys, for the record, lol. both very different, both in their tastes and the way they handle me. i mean that in the most literal sense, lol, the way they touch me and hold me are so different.... for example, when going to sleep, Dan will lay next to me, cuddle me, and pet me til i fall asleep almost. Bobby, on the other hand, tends to wrap himself around me, pull me as close as he can, and maybe drop a few kisses on my neck before drifting off to sleep. Dan is a little rougher in the bedroom, while Bobby thus far has always been very gentle, almost reverent. *blushes* Bobby is slow, sexy, easy. Dan is intense, sometimes volatile. Dan almost tries to make sex an olympic sport, Bobby tends more towards making love. it's something in the way Bobby holds my hips when i'm riding him, the way he says my name just before he cums.... *shivers* we feel emotion from each other in waves, which only intensifies the experience. Dan, on the other hand, while always happy to please in the bedroom, is rapidly becoming an obvious choice for a secondary, but not someone i could partner well with over time. he's fun, and he keeps me entertained, mostly. but i think the new shiny is wearing off on this one, tho he's as deeply infatuated as ever. Bobby seems disinclined to share me for long, we'll have to see how that goes. i know my territorial streak will assert itself before long, as well, so we'll have to see what sort of transition this brings. well, maybe not quite racy enough, but it'll have to do for now.
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camping trip, part five....
DATE: 08/24/2007 12:38:54 / MOOD: in love
as J is splitting the wood down into smaller bits, it starts to sprinkle again. so we toss the kindling into the tent to try and keep it less-wet, and toss ourselves in after. i think that's about when i stripped out of the soaking pants and shoes and wrapped a towel around me like a sarong instead, lol. we huddled in the tent and waited for the storm to pass, which it eventually did, or so we thought..... when it finally stopped raining again, we went out and figured that that HAD to be the last of it, so we raked the muck out of the way, grabbed the fire-starter log, and got things going. as we're lighting our fire, the younger of the two ladies from up the hill happens by, bedroll in hand. "there's a puddle in our tent, so we're not staying here tonight." we offered our condolences, and quietly agreed to ourselves that they were just not cut out for camping if you allow yourself to be deterred by a little rain, lol. well, we had just gotten the fire going, i had salvaged my used-to-be-dry shirt from the bottom of the tent, where it had gotten semi-soaked, and put it on, standing near the fire to dry out. just as i get my shirt completely dry, and i'm beginning to warm up..... it starts to sprinkle. i look up, it slacks off for a sec, then starts again. in that steadily increasing volume that means it's not stopping anytime soon. i heaved a sigh and headed for the tent, lol. J said he'd be right behind me, he took a few to throw several more dry logs on the fire, since we only had the one fire-starter, figured we'd best keep it going, lol. we were hoping on steaks for dinner, but we got none, lol. we had nothing but beer all day, tho it was not a bad thing. i was cold when we got in the tent, so i slipped under the sleeping bag to get warm, and the air mattress was so comfy, and the rain on the tent.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... yeah, i passed out, lol. the next morning, i woke up to the sizzle of something on a camp grill, and eventually dragged my butt out to see what was what. J had thrown the steaks on, they were just about done, he said my timing was perfect, lol. couldn't find plates, so we improvised and carved it up on the small cutting board and ate like animals, lmao. mind you, during the entire night, sitting next to the table, on the wet, wet ground.... were my pants, shoes, and extra socks. good thinking, eh? yeah, we so didn't do any hiking. we ate, commenced to packing up, even left our spare wood for the next campers for that site. took the scenic route, toured the other areas of the campground to check for more secluded sites, lol. the drive back was peaceful, we took the long route out to Front Royal, then back through Culpeper and down to Fredericksburg. i got a few texts from both Bobby and Dan as my signal went in and out on the way down Skyline, all very sweet. i love my boys. i got home with only a mild burn, from riding back in the truck, lol. the drive home was uneventful, but i realized how much i miss being out there in the country like that. big porches, tin roofs, the old lightning rods on the roof..... looks like if the boys want this, they're going to have to come south with me. 
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camping trip, part four....
DATE: 08/24/2007 12:23:27 / MOOD: in love
well, after getting back to camp, we set things down, and headed for the lodge to get a couple of extra bundles of firewood, figured we'd get ready to start dinner. we figured that between the bear and the deer that had wandered thru camp earlier, we'd seen plenty of nature for one day, lol. got back with the extra bundles, mind you, we had three in the truck, too. we grabbed the ones we had just gotten and headed for the table, it started to sprinkle, then tapered off. we figured we should be fine, so we cracked another beer, and as we were about halfway thru that, the rain started again. in earnest, lol. we quickly tossed the firewood under the table to keep it mostly dry, and being that we were redneck camping, did we go for the tent? naw, we stood under the one tiny tree in our campground, and cracked another beer. just standing out in the rain, lmao. i had to make a run to the bath-house, and on my way back across the parking lot, there was a flash and a huge crack of thunder, right over my head. i squeaked, lmao, but it was more in joy than anything else, lol. i got back inot camp, we cracked another beer, and the heavens simply let loose. about this time, i begin to notice that the usually dry spot on my shirt across my tummy is no longer so dry. matter o fact, there's water dripping into my shoes too.... i'll be damned, the rain was hard enough for long enough, and we were dumb enough to stand in it, that i am soaked from head to foot, water just running off every scrap of clothing i'm wearing. and wouldn't ya know it, i only brought one pair of pants for hiking..... rent was due again, so we headed for the bath-house, and found that there was a a ledge along the back of it that we could stand under and not get any more wet, lol. while sheltering there, we met a new friend from a neighboring site, who was complaining about camping with the kids, lol. the rain would start to let up, we'd head in the direction of camp, and it would start all over again, back to the bath-house we'd go, lol. eventually, it did stop, but not until i'd had an extremely close encounter with a disgruntled wood spider, lol. it was on the underside of the roof, and i'm not sure why, but it decided to drop righ onto my shoulder, run around the back of me and drop off. all of this, of course, while i was shrieking like a girl and having a near seizure out into the rain in an attempt to convince my little 8-legged friend that i am NOT a stable thing to stand on, lol. i have no problems with spiders, don't get me wrong. but this little guy invaded my personal space, lol. anyhoo, the rain stops, we head back to camp, and J starts making the now-wet wood into kindling. more.....
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